<3
do you know what makes
letting go of a crush so hard?
the fear that the moment
you let go, they'll catch on

<3
Honestly, I'm crazy about him.
But that doesn't make me stupid.
I've been hurt enough times
to learn my lesson.
It's not like he's the only guy
that has ever looked at me.
And why would I waste my time
on someone who doesn't appreciate me,
when you and I both know
I could do so much better?
He knows where to find me if he wants,
but my world's not going to stop
and wait for him.
And if he does come back,
who's to say that I'll
even be here when he does?

<3
don't lead me on,
don't leave me confused,
any girl would rather be left alone
than have her heart abused

<3
i could be a thousand miles away from you
on the perfect carribbean vacation, drinking
a strawberry smoothie, wearing a bikini, and
sitting in front of the ocean, and honey--
you`d still be the first thing on my mind

the end. haha <3

hey guys..

well i havnt updated in a long while so i will update on this week and some of last maybe.

Friday- At Home all night was ganna go out but turned out not going. so i stayed home and watched a movie with my sister [[ sister bonding time : ) ]]

Saturday- Sat around all day then went to brooke limes house and we hung out and what not. we were going to go swimming but by the time we got around it had gotten cold : ( it sucked.

Sunday- Brooke went to church while i slept and when they got back we went up to the river . it was real fun. at first it was boring but after i got to know everybody and what not it turned out to be real fun.  the water was freeeeezing though. and me and brooke dared each other to jump in and she wouldnt so i said if she got half way in i would J U M P in. well i started running to the end of the dock thinking i was going to stop but guess what...i didnt. i jumped right in. oh my was it freeezing. but after awhile it got warmer..haha well no it didnt . i just couldnt feel anything and i just thought it was warm.haha. well then we went jet skiing it was fun. then went tubbing ...wow....that hurt i must say......haha. well then we just sat around and watched people play games .haha...then went to bed.

Monday- woke up ate breakfast and went back to brookes.
when we got back there we decided since it was super hott to have guys over and swim. well the only one who ended up showing was justin hancock. but it was still fun...haha. we walked to brooke porters house and said hello. haha then i duno. well i got burnt and it hurt. then i went home around 6 ish.?

Tueday- Back to school : ( well i had first , second and third period exams. it sucked. it was english . math and history. i failed my history one badley but oh well i hate that class haha. then i came home from school and sat around and then amy and stephanie s. came over haha it was funny amy lost her voice. but i shall help you look for it amy! haha

Wednesday- LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. well i had 4th, 5th and 6th period exam. [[spanish, Earthscience and health]] it was pretty easy not counting the spanish one that was super hard. then after school i went to my moms and stayed the night

Today- woke up at 11. talked on the computer went to my neighbors house [[whos an old lady]] and helped her clean. i got 10$ it was pretty nice.haha.,oh and she gave me a whole bunch of cookies : P yummm..haha well i think josh is coming over in like 30 min. so i duno what im doing later. i might go to brookes or something?

Tomorrow- duno what im doing.

Saturday- im going to jens grad party from 5-7

Sunday- going to my moms best friends sons grad party. then to my cousins it should be fun.

well ill update monday maybe. bye!

...*Every Girls Dream*...

Get kissed in the rain

Have that one hott kiss where your pressed against the wall

Have a guy that thinks you're the world

Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs

A guy that whispers he loves you in your ear

Have that moment where you just gaze into eachother's eyes

When you cry, he kisses your tears away.

When you're not with your guy he's all that you can think about

Wearing his jacket and everytime you breath in, his scent surrounds you

A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.

A guy who squeezes your hand

A guy that says he loves you and means it

A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window

A guy who is loyal

A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.

A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.

A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy

A guy that will never judge you for how you look.

A guy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile

A guy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends

A guy that tells you everything honestly

A guy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family

A guy that will somtimes let you win

A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against

A guy who calls you at night just to say 'hi' and see how your day has been

A guy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better

A guy who will sit on the phone with you when you're sad, even if you're quiet

A guy who you can hangout and have fun with

A guy that will just randonmly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you

A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.

A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.

A guy who wouldn't mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.

A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.

A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he's washing your worries/troubles away.

hey guys.

well thismorning i moved to my sisters. and thats where i am now.. its pretty cool...its weird not being at home. but i duno. my moms pretty upset...well...yesterday we had a track inv. in wapak. it was loooooong. we left school at 2:15 and i didnt get home till 11:30...wow....it was long...haha but over all we did good! we got 1st and tehre was 10 teams. ...yupp..haha..well tonight i duno what im doing yet. hopefully i find something to do.  some time this week i get my computer here. im using my sisters laptop rightnow.. i burnt my tounge today on very very hot pizza. its hurts...haha

well im ganna go.

theres my update! haha

<3333

nicole